My name is Rose and I am 50 years old. I live in Portland Oregon. As a teenager and young adult growing up in Chicago, I suffered from clinical depression and had an alcohol and drug problem that lasted well into my 30’s.
I attempted suicide on more than one occasion. It is just by the grace of god and my son’s father that I am here. The last time, I took 19 Phenobarbital that I was prescribed to control seizures and downed them with a bottle of Jack Daniels. I was in the ICU of a hospital when I woke up. My son’s dad called the Ambulance and administered CPR on me. After I was ok, I was admitted to the psych ward and went into rehab for both alcohol and cocaine abuse. I went to counseling and signed a “No Harm” contract with my doctor.
That was 17 years ago. I ended up joining a suicide grief support group because a lovely young lady who was the love of my now 19-year-old son’s life killed herself. She was into the drug culture but had cleaned up along with my son shortly before she killed herself in December 2006. I know because of my own experience that there were underlying factors. But we are survivors both of the attempt and out loved ones suicide.
If anybody feels like they want to give up, get help please. Suicide is so final and costs so much to those left behind emotionally. It is the ultimate way of dealing with the pain that some people deal with, but there are other ways. Counseling, rehab, therapy… All of these do work.
Here are some facts about suicide. It is the third leading cause of death among young people aged 15-25 in the United States and Oregon ranks tenth in the nation among death by suicide. I am asking anyone who reads this, don’t be another statistic, be a survivor. Find a group that deals with depression or other mental illnesses. Knowledge is the key to surviving and getting help and with knowledge and education; we can prevent this pandemic that is called suicide.